time, whats that?
but really, where did the time go? I felt like just last year i was graduating and now theres only one week left of freshmen year. It is so surreal and at the same time not very surreal at all. Everyone always tells you what a big transition college is, but i feel like it really isnt. Or maybe its just me. I feel like this whole year i was just floating along and even though floating is easy i hate it. I feel like i haven’t done as much growing as i wanted to this year, i feel like i haven’t been putting myself out there. theres no abrupt change in me, no sudden empathany. i feel stagnant for once in life and its not a feeling i like. i feel like even though i’m growing up age wise, i’m not growing up in any other aspects of my life. i’m afraid that for once in my life i don’t like who i am and i’m not happy and that utterly scares me.
on the brightside, i love the people that i have met in college, i love love love my roommate and the thought of not being roommates with her next year brings tears to my eyes. i am more in love my major than ever before. i love my fraternity, even if my big is the biggest poop i know :)
